Forgiven

I just sent an sms apologizing to my ex whom I have not been in contact with since we broke up almost 2 years back.

Two years ago I gave him the impression that I liked him, only to betray and disappoint him in the end by leaving him. My reason was that I realized he was not the one, but he was already too deep in love with me.

I did not shed a tear when we broke up over a few smses that time, because I realized that there was no love from me, only the comfort of having someone to exchange care and be intimate with.

In my sms just now I told him I wouldn't hope for his forgiveness, but I do hope that he has a better life now without me.

Truth is.. I do want to be forgiven.

Because I know now what is the invisible curse.

It's guilt.