The fanciful fool

For those who love thrilling, impactful, twisted and wonderfully executed movies, I recommend the 2003 Korean flick titled 'Old Boy'. Once you watched it, you'll find it hard to forget :-) Other than importing the DVD from other countries, your best bet would be downloading through BT. The soundtrack is incredible, most suiting for the movie.

The latest James Bond outing 'Casino Royale' was not bad, Daniel could use more warming up to the character, but otherwise he's quite alright even without those classical suave looks (thanks in large to that well built bod). Eva managed to be both stylishly cool and lovely, I'd fall for her if I was straight. For some reason, I find myself liking the theme song 'You know my name', and for some reason, the opening credit scene was both amusing and creative in a way :-P

Someone told me that I must have a lot of time to write all these journals/blogs/diaries of mine. It's actually not that I have the time, I just happen to be willing to spend what's left of my waking hours to write them. Often I wish there were more than 24 hours in a day, cos seriously 24 hours is just not enough for me. There were times when I actually wrote some of the entries until wee hours into the morning. There are things which I don't like leaving hanging mid-way unfinished, and blogging is one of them, cos most of the time I write with some degree of inspiration, it just doesn't feel the same the next time I write.

I really appreciate it everytime someone messages me telling me how they liked reading some of my blogs. The joy was being able to share with others my thoughts and knowing that they were able to identify with it. Some say they don't understand what I'm writing about, cos I tend to write in cryptic sentences, and it's really quite true lol. I guess I'm just not the kind who likes to be too direct, I find it more satisfying when someone could understand what I meant without having me describe everything in barenakedness.

Someone also commented to me about the often depressing nature of my blogs. "Do you not have any happy experiences?", was somewhere along the lines of what he said. Writing is one of my way to de-stress and help sort out what's on my mind (which sometimes can be a lot :-P). Not that most of the time I'm suicidally depressed, it's just that strong emotions are usually the trigger and inspiration for me to write, hence the somewhat sad tones of my blogs.

Sometimes others might preceive me as arrogant, ignorant or not like to give a damn to anything, actually it's really not my intention to be preceived as such. In fact, you can be sure that I do care about most things, the fact that I'm not showing doesn't mean I don't care. It's just that my own nature often encourages me to avoid any unnecessary attachments as much as possible, I don't like being in relationships which are complicated. I really am just quite a simple guy, it's very easy to see through me if you pay enough attention. If I like you enough, I'll go all the way to even make myself a fool just to please you. If you find yourself being the one who's trying to please me, its probably that I'm not attracted to you enough to make things easier for you. I'm really sorry if this is the case.

I usually find it hard to reject someone by telling them directly, cos I can't bring myself to see the reaction of others being rejected. Perhaps I should save them from possibly additional pain by just being direct, but for the moment I guess this would be something I need to work on.

If I look like a fool to you, it's cos only a fool isn't afraid to fail.

Till death do us apart..

Met a friend lately who have just lost a loved one to an accident.

I myself have not lost any person close to me before, so I don't think I can imagine a fraction of the pain that one goes through following the lost.

But as he was sitting there on the sofa, talking about the lost, I can't help but imagine the degree of loneliness and grief he's been through every night at the place where they spent the last 3 years together.

A tinge of envy, for obviously they loved each other so much.

A pinch of regret, for obviously I shouldn't be envious of others' sufferings.

A flash of realization, for although death comes to each of us, each of us lives on through others.

We all know where the road of life ultimately leads to. Perhaps to live is to learn to accept death, to accept the fact that there is no second chance in life and what we do during our limited time here is what that counts.

The Magicians

Magicians are adept at playing tricks which fool the minds of others into believing what is not real. Appearing out of and vanishing into thin air are one of their specialties.

Most of us are magicians in our own rights, cos we like to appear out of nowhere into somebody else's life for a period and play the vanishing act sometime after.

Sometimes we became so good at such tricks that we have forgotten how it felt to be the one that the trick was played on.

As good a magician as we are, there comes a time, when every magician would meet his equal and for once be the one who got to witness the tricked played on him.

So, have you met your equal yet? Cos I have lost count of mine :-)

When you think you have nothing

Be glad to know that you are almost always wrong,
cos you have so many things right in front of you,
that you probably won't know you had until you have lost them.

When you think there's no hope for happiness,
be glad to know that being able to live to see tomorrow come,
is a reason enough to be happy,
for as long as there's tomorrow,
there's hope.

When you think you are the loneliest person in the whole world,
be glad to know that this writer was the first to be there,
so you're not really alone ;-)