The fanciful fool

For those who love thrilling, impactful, twisted and wonderfully executed movies, I recommend the 2003 Korean flick titled 'Old Boy'. Once you watched it, you'll find it hard to forget :-) Other than importing the DVD from other countries, your best bet would be downloading through BT. The soundtrack is incredible, most suiting for the movie.

The latest James Bond outing 'Casino Royale' was not bad, Daniel could use more warming up to the character, but otherwise he's quite alright even without those classical suave looks (thanks in large to that well built bod). Eva managed to be both stylishly cool and lovely, I'd fall for her if I was straight. For some reason, I find myself liking the theme song 'You know my name', and for some reason, the opening credit scene was both amusing and creative in a way :-P

Someone told me that I must have a lot of time to write all these journals/blogs/diaries of mine. It's actually not that I have the time, I just happen to be willing to spend what's left of my waking hours to write them. Often I wish there were more than 24 hours in a day, cos seriously 24 hours is just not enough for me. There were times when I actually wrote some of the entries until wee hours into the morning. There are things which I don't like leaving hanging mid-way unfinished, and blogging is one of them, cos most of the time I write with some degree of inspiration, it just doesn't feel the same the next time I write.

I really appreciate it everytime someone messages me telling me how they liked reading some of my blogs. The joy was being able to share with others my thoughts and knowing that they were able to identify with it. Some say they don't understand what I'm writing about, cos I tend to write in cryptic sentences, and it's really quite true lol. I guess I'm just not the kind who likes to be too direct, I find it more satisfying when someone could understand what I meant without having me describe everything in barenakedness.

Someone also commented to me about the often depressing nature of my blogs. "Do you not have any happy experiences?", was somewhere along the lines of what he said. Writing is one of my way to de-stress and help sort out what's on my mind (which sometimes can be a lot :-P). Not that most of the time I'm suicidally depressed, it's just that strong emotions are usually the trigger and inspiration for me to write, hence the somewhat sad tones of my blogs.

Sometimes others might preceive me as arrogant, ignorant or not like to give a damn to anything, actually it's really not my intention to be preceived as such. In fact, you can be sure that I do care about most things, the fact that I'm not showing doesn't mean I don't care. It's just that my own nature often encourages me to avoid any unnecessary attachments as much as possible, I don't like being in relationships which are complicated. I really am just quite a simple guy, it's very easy to see through me if you pay enough attention. If I like you enough, I'll go all the way to even make myself a fool just to please you. If you find yourself being the one who's trying to please me, its probably that I'm not attracted to you enough to make things easier for you. I'm really sorry if this is the case.

I usually find it hard to reject someone by telling them directly, cos I can't bring myself to see the reaction of others being rejected. Perhaps I should save them from possibly additional pain by just being direct, but for the moment I guess this would be something I need to work on.

If I look like a fool to you, it's cos only a fool isn't afraid to fail.