Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Fear

I realised nowadays we tend to habour a lot of fears.

Fear of trying, because we have failed many times before.

Fear of believing, because we have been let down many times before.

Fear of being happy, because we know it will never last.

Fear of being loved, because we know it will probably never last too, or worse we might end up disappointing others.

Fear is our constant reminder that we are never free in this world, it's our self-imposed prison that holds us back from doing the things that we sometimes wished we could do.

My friend thinks Long Distance Relationship is impossible, because that would be the common sense.

Another friend is not sure whether the person he loves really want him or is just treating him as a convenient lover who can be called and dismissed whenever the lover likes.

And yet another friend who had 6 years LDR + 2 years living together with his ex (who in the end went back to the home country for another guy), still hangs on to hope that he might still have chance with his ex. He now doesn't know whether he should move on, cos he probably couldn't believe how 8 years of love (not to mention mainly LDR) could just be flushed down the drain like that.

The list goes on.. painful experiences and heart-breaking stories of others instill ever more fear into our collective consciousness.

We all have this constant struggling of wanting to do something against what would happen if we really did it, while time and opportunities probably slowly passing us by. By the time we made our decision, there is already no need for a decision.

You may be able to think of an infinite number of outcomes, but the fact is there won't be one unless you start acting on it.

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