The Sign

No, not the movie which everyone thought was not really about alien invasion but turned out to be alien invasion afterall, lol.

I'm talking about signs, those that I read off people all too much and to my dismay, all too correctly.

What happens after the first meeting always put me into nervous breakdown, especially when I found myself constantly thinking of the person whom I just met, and feel so eager to meet again.

Usually if someone doesn't really like me during the meeting, I can somewhat catch the cue, and I'll most probably going to forget about hoping for a second date and try to just keep it as pure friendship.

The problem is when someone gives out all the strong signals of liking me (or at least enjoying my company), being 'affectionate' to me and showing eagerness of seeing me again, but in the end said they were only looking for friends or didn't even bother to contact me again, well you can imagine how dissapointed I can be.

I understand some are like me, who likes to remain silent and hope that the other party will get the meaning that they are not interested any more eventually. I just realised how much a pain-in-the-ass this silence thing is for the suffering party.

I would usually take the sign that when the other party doesn't initiate any contact anymore or likes to end chats in a hurry, that they are no longer interested.

But sometimes you just don't feel like accepting the hard cold truth that you have come to derive yourself, and you ended up sending out some stupid (and potentially emotional) questions to the other party to confirm your feelings, which would usually end up either making a supposedly good relation turn sour, getting a flat out rejection or worse, more silence! :-)

I'm not totally against the use of silence, because it saves you from having to explain to countless admirers why you do not find them attractive enough.

But when you use silence for someone you no longer find desirable and you fear explaining will only cause more pain to the other party, well the sad truth is, silence is just almost as painful as any other words. I think it's almost akin to hiring a killer to do the dirty job for you.

Ok, think I've confused even myself of what I'm supposed to say here, lol. But anyway, I think I speak for myself when I say that,

"Mean what you say, and say what you mean. To me, affections should only be shown when you really like someone, not when you are horny."