Of crushes and jealousies; Of sex and casuality

If I do not feel jealous when someone would rather spend time flirting with others than be with me,
I do not enjoy his company any more than the next guy.

If I do not feel jealous when someone would do something for someone else while take what I did for him as granted,
he does not mean enough to me for me to give a hoot.

If I do not feel jealous when someone re-tells me his sexual escapades,
I am not in love with him.

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I used to be able to treat sex as a casual thing,
but nowadays I think I am slowly losing that ability.

Almost every profile I see,
the guys I fancy are just looking for sex.

The guys I don't fancy enough,
they want me for real.

Animals have sex to propagate,
we gays mostly have sex because it's fun.

How much of promiscuous sex is enough?
How much of fun is enough?

For some life is about enjoying ourselves to the fullest,
and having sex with as many different people as possible is part of the enjoyment.

Where and when does the fine line between making love and making sex become ambiguous?

This is why sex buddy arrangements will never work for me. To have sex with a person that many times, probably means I like him more than I thought.

The people I had ONS with, I had to make sure they are the kind I would never think twice about not seeing again. This is the only time I can say, "No strings attached".

Those whom I have had sex with and still remained friends is an extremely rare breed, because I think most of the time having had sex between friends makes the friendship very ambiguous. For one, I would never have sex with a normal friend. Which means if I had sex with a 'friend', it either means to me he is not just a friend, or that he's the kind of friend I would not likely be close with.

Maybe it's just my very sentimental view on sex, maybe sex is really what nature intended it to be - just a way to procreate without any 'feeling' attached.

Sometimes I can't believe I can have such holistic view on sex, I mean I'm a gay for Pete's sake! I am supposed to be able to enjoy it and not think twice about satisfying that libido anytime and anywhere I want.

Someone should really put some senses back into me :-P