Limbo

It's been 3 days since that day he kissed me on the cheek. I did not tell him, that it was the first time anyone had ever given me a kiss on the cheek. A simple kiss, yet it meant more to me than most kisses I ever had.

I feel like being in a limbo now, in front of me I can see him in the distance, smiling and waving at me, the harbinger of joy. I felt so welcomed.

I tried to take a step forward and called out to him, but at the same time he also took a step further from me. I stopped, wondering what happened. Have I misread his intentions?

I took some time to take another step forward, but by now I could no longer hear his sweet teasings, his face started to blur out of my vision, and he's further away than ever before.

As if the magic that made him desired me on that day has withered away, I found myself staring at the shadow of his back, getting left further and further behind. My heart sank everytime seeing the gentle tracks he left on the ground, wondering whether he is moving on to a future without me..

Hard as I tried, I could not get out of this limbo. I'm forced to look at the distance shadow of his slipping away ever slowly from me.

I realised I'm starting to forget how he looked and sounded like, yet my yearning for his company has not ceased, I still feel as strongly for him as I did 3 days ago.

What should I do? Should I attempt a sprint and risk seeing him actually running away from me? Or should I just let him slip out of my vision slowly but surely, and not risk my pride and a full-blown heartache?