Standpoint

Don't know why I had to write this entry, maybe just wanted to make the number of my diary entries to 45, cos 44 didn't sound too nice, lol. Well, at least this is not another movie review :-P

Anyway, have been kinda empty lately after coming back to KL. While I continue trying to be my good ol' cheerful carefree self, a lot of things around me seem to have gone for the worse.

Like the other night, one of my friend got so drunk on our night out and surprised me, cos I have never seen him in such a low state before. My guess is that he had problem in his relationship with his BF, probably broke up as hinted by what he wrote on his online profile. I never personally asked him about it, cos I'm never used to meddling in others' love affairs.

Relationships, relationships and relationships.. strings connecting each other are becoming as fragile as they can be, this is the world that I have came home to.

On the other hand, I'm seeing many new couples among some friends as well, which always make me green-eye envious! Lol, yea I hate being the loser, but of course I still wish my friends all the happiness and I'm sure they'll cherish what they have found, for we all know how many IRC "ASL", online profile clicking, club hopping and blind dates we had to go through during the search for Mr. Right.

For quite a few times, as I looked at some cute little kid running around, I was wondering to myself, how good would it be to have a proper wife and have an offspring of mine like that, maybe then life would be more meaningful than the countless dates and casual shags (ok, maybe this one is countable afterall, hehe) that I've been having all this while.

Life now for me is like a series of quick Happy Meals. And I don't even like fastfood all that much.