What's Worse Than Having No BF?

Answer No.:

1) Single sidedly (so I think) falling for a seemingly perfect guy who is bi, non-local, of different race, from a conservative family, smokes and with a mobile working environment. He's perfect alright, just that he comes with every single imaginable trait which I've been trying to avoid all these time. Talk about being fucked-up by fate :-)

2. Being told by the same guy that he'll be looking for a gf after around 2 years and hopefully getting married soon after that.

*insert numerous thunder sounds with tragic background music*

But seriously, to love or not to love? If only life is that simple. Is the love worth seeking if you've already known its expiry date?

3. Everytime I think of him, I'll get Lovesick Syndrome.

Lovesick Syndrome - A condition which I seem to get into automatically whenever I fall in love and the odds ain't lookin' pretty. The symptoms kinda go like this: I'll consistently think of a person, the more I think of him the more I'll feel sad, the sadder I feel the more I'll feel sick (literally), and eventually I'll probably really fall sick.

4. Sometimes I feel like becoming a monk or priest and go on a pilgrimage to seek a peace of my mind. Maybe some might feel that this sounds kinda extreme, but it is how I feel at times when I couldn't break out of sadness caused by all these love things which I seem to be easily overwhelmed with. Maybe that's why some people seek the state of 'no desire', cos 'no desire' = 'no suffering'. No?